And to a good start too :). If I look back at the history of my business, and the dreamcreating part of my life I see this:
During 2011 I planted the seed for a new plant. Me and P had our second child and started to feel complete as a family and I started a business. My businss started up with a great opportunity to collaborate with a friend of mine to conduct a health survey and analyze it for a large company. I was excited since that job gave me money to start investing in my other dream: to create as a living. This was during the summer. Autumn was filled with sleplessness and nursing and babyblues and joy over the true angel we were sent. As well as joy over watching our toddler twist and turn into slowly becoming a brother. Not much business. Not much creating. Lots of tears and laughter.
2012 was in some ways a year of challenge. Not having slept properly for years, or having time for myself started to take its' toll on me. I struggled to find energy, to stop negative thoughts and fears from invading me, I was without job and had to find employment and I started showing signs of depression. Throughout all of this I always felt my little family around me as a beacon of love and support. And I kept on creating, creating, creating in the tiny bits of time I could find. I even had my first ever exhibition and sold my first two prints! Yay! I realized that in order to make my business work, I needed to get my head straight and make myself work. I embarked on a spiritual journey to find strenght and the wise voice inside. I journaled and wrote every now and then on my blog (www.robinhasadream.blogspot.com). Until I came to the realization that I needed to gain health and clarity first. Then do business. So I quit blogging and did a lot of thinking, reading and listening to wise people (www.leoniedawson.com, www.marieforleo.com, anthony robbins, www.chrisguillebeua.com and gabby bernstein of www.gabbytv.com amongst others). I booked my second exhibition wich will hopefully take place this year. The signs of depression grew stronger and by the end of the year I realized I needed to face all my fears and worries and procrastrinating head on right away or become ill. And so that's what I decided to do.
2013. I somehow almost magically managed with the turn of the year to turn my negative thoughts into calm ones. I have quit sugar and carbohydrates to help myself stabilize my physical system to support my mind and emotions (one week now, yay!). I have begun to ease into a firmer structure where I create with purpose for a couple of hours the days I don't work. And I feel a new kind of courage to step onto my path more boldly.
I am a creative. I am an artist. The gift I bring the world is my art.
I am set on believing this. This is my path for now. I know there are tens of thousands of artists out there way more skilled than I am. That doesn't scare me anymore. I love them and what they create! And I deeply value the joy and love I am able to give my family when I am happy and in alignment with my true essence. And that is when I create art. And when I lie on my deathbed I want to think of how I finally had the courage to take the leap and try to make it following my dreams. No matter how slowstarted I am, or how scared. Actually no matter if I succeed or not. When I press the publishbutton for this webpage I am taking the leap.
I hope you will find some joy and inspiration here and that you will follow me on the journey towards dreamland and share with me your travels.