It happens to me every once in a while. Some periods more than others. I find myself in a good flow. And then a sudden stop. Words and images disappear. My mind goes blank.
I used to agonize a lot about it. Maybe sometimes I still do a bit. Because when you are in a good flow you want to stay there, right? So I try to just take it easy, listen in and see if I can find out what the silence is about.
This time I am not sure. I was away on summer vacation. Blog reader numbers were rising. I had a lot of inspiration and started getting ideas for the future. And then I went to my mother’s and my stepfather’s summer house and went silent. Trust me, I have psychologized this, I am after all a psychologist too. And I think part of it is the good old resistance rising – fear of success, fear of “people” finding out I am “a fraud in everything”, fear of losing what is there. I am sure you all recognize this. Some of it may be returning to childhood/youth and not thinking high enough of me or my abilities yet.
But to a large extent this is also who I am. I am no constant. I am ebb and flow. In all things I feel and do. And so will this blog be. The work I produce. The themes I pursue.
A lot of people say to be consistent is the only way to success, and perhaps it is true. But I think I am not the only one to be like this. And I believe if we tap into ourselves and listen for when there is resistance that need to be overcome, and when there is a true need for ebb, we can still keep going. Maybe at a different pace, but still going. Maybe not straight, but still forward.
What do you do to find your flow again?