I instantly felt drawn to the method. Intuitive painting. I hadn’t been painting for a long while, maybe 15 years. I love drawing and creating images that tell a story, but I felt a longing for something that built on letting go of control and creating more wildly. So I signed up for the Bloom True e-course by Flora Bowley. At the beginning of the course we were asked to set an intention for the course, and mine was to find another language with which to express my inner world. I wanted to see if I could attain a better (or maybe just different) connection with myself and what goes on inside. Maybe because I work as a psychologist, sometimes I feel that talking about my own inner life distances me from it rather than bring me closer.
I had no specific expectations about what would happen, didn’t feel any pressure to succeed in creating wonderful things. I just wanted to dive into a new kind of creative process. And so I did. And now I never intend to ever leave it.
With one of the paintings I wanted to depict my inner chaos, to gain a better perspective:
I had no specific expectations about what would happen, didn’t feel any pressure to succeed in creating wonderful things. I just wanted to dive into a new kind of creative process. And so I did. And now I never intend to ever leave it.
With one of the paintings I wanted to depict my inner chaos, to gain a better perspective:
I have been working really hard, to let go of controlling, of trying to direct the process, just following my intuition again and again with each layer. And I have ended up slowly building a more positive attitude towards my chaos. In the images I see that even though it is indeed chaotic and restless and the paintings are not harmonious and look even “unfinished”, I see beauty in there. And I see the freedom and wilderness I long for in my everyday life. I have been so tired of trying to put into words and come up with ideas to solve certain themes in my inner world. And now through painting I am suddenly curious to find out what more can come out of it. I sense I may find a long silenced part of me.